A letter from Dec 19, 2025

Dear FutureMe, Today, I’m writing this letter with a heavy heart. I recently broke up with my first boyfriend—my first in everything. I’ve been crying a lot. Lately, everything feels too heavy, too suffocating. I’m torn between wanting to cry all day and not wanting to spend my entire day drowning in tears. This pain feels like it might leave a scar. It makes falling in love again feel terrifying. My walls are getting higher, my trust issues deeper, and the thought of opening my heart again scares me more than ever. I don’t know if I could survive this kind of pain a second time. If you’re reading this someday, I hope you’ve made peace with what hurt you. I hope the pain no longer consumes you. I hope it’s not the first thing you feel when you wake up—the heaviness, that familiar suffocating ache. I hope you did the things you once promised yourself. I hope, at some point, you were okay. Even if not perfect—just okay.