Benefits

At the core of my being, I want to be loved so deeply. To be seen. To be genuinely held and cared for. To be supported. To be yearned for. To be touched so lovingly. My body aches for a touch, a kiss, that means something and everything at the same time. A hug that warms my soul. A stare that pierces my entire being. A smile that melts my heart. A song that makes everything feel light. Your hand intertwined in mine, ready to face what the world's about to bring. How long will I keep chasing momentary highs and endless lows? A night of release for a dopamine hit in the moment. And several nights and days thereafter feeling truly empty? I want this to mean something, but it won't. Thing is, when can I truly and really walk away?