A letter from Nov 13, 2025

Dear future me, How's everything going? Did you finally get a job in the game or animatino industry as you've always wanted? I'm surviving giving online Spanish lessons and dogsitting. It's not much but it pays the bills. I started doing this as a day job while I was looking for a job in a studio, but honestly I kind of give up. I don't like to admit it, but it's true. My art is just not enough for the highly competitive industry and I suck at networking (apart from thinking that making "friends" just to get a job is uncomfortable, and a tad disgusting imo). Deep inside, I hope that some day my time to shine will come. Unrealistic, speacially since I'm doing close to nothing to achieve it. I have tons of unfinished projects. Maybe I should work on my discipline... Do you still fell sutck in your life? You're 26 now, I hope you're not panicking over being closer to 30 as I was when I turned 25 last month. Me, I'm currently pursuing a master on art direction for graphic design, but I think I'll drop it, becuase I don't think I'll get a company for the internship (alternance) before January and I'm not paying for the master, I just can't afford it. It's 12k€ per year, so 24k€ for the full master. Do you still live in Lyon? You probablly do, I don't have plans on moving soon, so do you at least like it better? It's been more then a year since I moved to France. I can't say I particularly like it. Lyon is said to be the cullinary capital of France, but as a vegan that means nothing to me, everything has at least butter. Everything is way more expensive than in Spain and I can't just connect with people here. It was already hard to socialise back in Spain, but not knowing french (or not feeling confident about it) makes it way harder. The scenery is nice though... I'm not alone here. I'm living with the person that made me come here in the first place. We don't have conflicts but sometimes I wonder what life back in Spain would be like. It's not all grey and numb, it's nice to out and eat an ice cream or something next to the river. Anyway, this was more of a vent than a letter for my future self. I hope you're better now or at least stopped whinning about it