A letter from Nov 10, 2025

Dear FutureMe, hi i got a letter from last year me today. i thought of writing to you as well addressing all the worries past me had expressed. so that one year later, when you get this letter you can also have the strength it brought me today. i'm fine and i'm doing okay. life has been pretty generous with me past one year. health could be better though, i have anaemia and trouble sleeping. i'm not graduating this year tho, it would take till February if i'm not wrong. I'm under Pintu sir's thesis group and my project mate is faria. we are selecting disaster management and integrating dl or ml into that. it isn;t final yet. i feel very overwhelmed with it rn. I hope when this letter reaches you next year, it brings smile to your face. I have had a year blast with extra curricular goodness. I was deputy lead of tedx and now leading the marketing team for hult. I can not believe it. I couldn't even make it to last years OC but now i'm literally LEADING the team this is so surreal! i dont know if i'm working hard or not but i'm definitely doing better. academics are a mess and i'm truly and really burned out like i cannot bring myself to give a single **** abt it. tmrw is raji sir's midterm for ai and i haven't studied **** although i think i'll manage. i hope it ends quickly, this bsc stuffs. i cannot deal with it at all anymore. about job, umm currently i earn 13k per month and the savings is ZERO. i have applied to palak's company today and i'm really hopeful about it. I really want this job although he has warned me about the toll it about to bring. But i'm truly desperate. i'm going to rent a place for me and sami from next january and i really dont know how i'm supposed to maintain a whole family in this economy with only 13k per month. i really really hope i get the job! i do have everything planned out. I'm going to makes my passport and take IELTS first and start applying for fall-27 session. currently i have 3-4 countries in mind. Ireland will be my TOP priority. But i'll also check erasmus mundus and MEXT. for safety, i'm putting denmark. I also plan to apply for Job visas like China-K visa and etc. I'll start content creation journey along it as well. from next year. it might take a long time but better late than never. abbu ammu is fine these days. i'm so close to a normal life. and about kawsar, it's complicated. i know i'm to blame. it's my fault and i admit it. but god do i miss him. i love him i love him so much it hurts so much i literally cannot picture anyone in my life but him. i'll leave him alone one day but for now let me be selfish please. i love him. anyways, to be honest i think my position in the miserable scale has gone down like 2-3 levels. i was 10/10 last year and i think its a 7 this year. hopefully next year it will be like 2/10. i know i cannot truly escape miserable-hood and i respect it. i hope you have continued to do it. do it scared. do it alone. push yourself. you are really so close. if you dont act now, you'll lose it. i hope next year this letter puts a smile to your face and you think how silly you were one year earlier. i love you. i always have. i always will. please let kawsar go, he deserves better. and stop being a ******* loser for ornob.