A letter from Nov 09, 2025

Dear FutureMe, Hi. I just turned 22. How are you? I' m not really sure how I feel today. I didn't cry— well it looks like I am gonna cry now I can feel the tears slowly building up, thorns wrapped around my throat. Is this a never ending cycle of crying on your birthday? Sometimes I wonder if I failed to be the adult younger us envisioned, but there are also times that I can't remember if we even dreamed to be something. I never envisioned existing beyond 16 so I never really had a plan, now that I am 22 I still don't have one. Maybe I'll be invited to the 28 club. I'm not sure. I don't want Mama to be heartbroken, it's enough after everything father put her through. LMAO my heart is clenching. **** this ****. **** this birthday. **** this sadness. **** every negativity I feel and have ever felt during this day. Last month I received a letter from you, I got ice cream. I'm not sure what I'm doing in life. What the **** there's an ad for an online therapy service lmao. Happy birthday. I hope you're happier than I am.