A letter from Nov 07, 2025

Dear FutureMe, Hello, Engr. At this time you'll be a 31-year-old woman. Do we get to read this? Mabilis lang ang sampung taon. Engineer, how are you? I am your 21-year-old self. Things have been hectic this time, hindi ko alam saan kukuha ng inspirations and I am spiraling for the same things over and over. Ayoko maging too depressing for you, kasi I am not—not this time. oh, here's a recommendation for a nostalgic song to listen: Pag-Ibig ay Kanibalismo II. Actually what I am feeling right now is something you're really—very—familiar with. Iniisip ko kung may boyfriend or husband ka na (girlfriend doesn't sound bad too). But at this time, gusto ko lang ipaalala sa'yo na you've been really down bad to this one person. Now, I'm curious na rin how's he in your time? Duda naman ako na keep in touch pa rin kayo... well, sige na umaasa akong kayo na. *\^0^/* Delulu ka ever since, hindi mo ko p'wedeng i-judge. Do not cringe!! That's how you get things, babe. Delulu is the solulu. That's why doble pagka-delulu mo sa taong 'to. Write rin kaya ako ng letter sa kaniya rito... hmm. Paalala ko ba na 'yung pag-heart niya sa story mo, pag-react niya sa fb posts and stories mo, iniisip mo na first move? Eka mo pa, "first move niya na 'to, balik ko?" amputek. Lakas ng tama mo. Up until now, the love letter, it's still in your journal, not seeing any sunlight. Do you still have it? Or you decided to throw it along the way? I hope not. It's a sign—an evidence of something true that only you knew—oo na pati ni chatgpt. You know, ever since you're a little girl, something with love and romance have been picking with your longing and soft heart. Ever since, you always long for it. Waiting patiently for it, saying it'll come when it is your right time. Now, I am 21. Can I say that I am reaaaaaaally getting annoyed na? I know, 21 is a young age. Ayokong nag-cocompare but I can't help it. Bakit sila... But I love that we know how to cherish these unplaced feelings, we know that it is building us. Little by little, they are building me and you. Mas lumalalim ang understanding mo, mas nagiging malawak kang tao. You learn not only to love truthfully but also to understand the design of people. You've been a good observer this time, sana mas napagyabong mo. Teka, baka naman hindi mo na mababasa 'to? Sana hindi ka mawalan ng hope. I hope you're alive and healthy. I am thriving to do that, day by day. Surviving college really ain't for the weak. P'wede sa weak immune system but not advisable. Your psoriasis ain't being happy about it XD Ta'mo nga naman. This is not coincidence. S'yempre you know you. You stopped writing this letter for a while, nag-scroll ka sa facebook and look what you found. "One day you'll see why God made you wait." I think that's a confirmation, babe. Hindi ko na need ituloy pa ang shenanigans ko na 'to. You're happily married na 'no?! HAHAHAHAHA. I think yes, and I hope you're happy. Just like me today :) and im doing my thesis na hayop ano ba bat ba need nito actually ayun dapat ang ginagawa ko ngayon so okay bye~!! wait may bayad yung 10 years??? okay try ko na lang sa 5 years. so hello sa 26-year-old me MAY BAYAD BA 'TO LAHAT SAYANG NAMAN SIGE TRY 3 YEARS. HELLO SA 24-YEAR-OLD ME!! **** IT