A letter from Nov 03, 2025

Dear FutureMe, At this moment in time we are struggling. Work is crazy, love that isn’t yours is crazy right now, and the feeling of who your friends are, and the back and forth of wanting more and not wanting is kinda crazy, yet a feeling that you can’t explain. We are behind in school, feeling like a failure at work, and looking back at this year and struggling to find out something that we’ve accomplished that didn’t already feel necessary to succeed at ( at no fault but my own ) I know that I do have everything I could ever want, a happy and chaotic family (cousins included), a great church and, a reasonably steady job (depending on the week), and I invitation into a friend group that is valuing chaotic time together. But no matter what I feel an insufficiency, and almost everyday I think of the quote that says “ I hope people don’t remember me by my worst moments “ There are very few things I want next year, at this time when we are peaking over the cliff to the chaos of holidays and Christmas. But one thing I do wish that I grow in a closer relationship with God. I know that I am enough, but more often than not I forget. No matter how many times I get told I am at an amazing part in my career, and how beautiful I am, I still look at myself and don’t feel like enough. I know the solution to the problem, but it’s one of those things that feel like it isn’t mine to take, or maybe I don’t deserve it? I’m not for sure, it’s one of those unexplained feelings that does have value, but that I can’t explain. If this was a text message I was sending to a friend, it would be really easy to figure out how to end this message. Maybe with a thumbs up? Well, if I do say so myself, that sounds like a great idea 👍