A letter from Nov 03, 2025

Dear FutureMe, I know life's been kinda hard lately specially emotionally. This year has been roller coaster, no actually more on a bungee jump just straight to bottom. There's a lot that happened this year that past me wouldn't even believe that happen. The switch from shs to college is crazy, no joke it's CRAZY HARD. I can't believe I went from worrying about my school and course to actually being here. I don't know if I'm happy about this, people are saying that it will someday be worth it and that things will get better someday somehow, but it's hard to see that lately. Motivations are really down to zero. Choosing practicality over passion isn't for the weak. It's not a secret that we need to have some kind of love or joy in doing what we do, unless we will kind of be just burnt out. I'm practically the evidence of that, choosing a program that I'm not passionate about or even just having a joy doing it on the future. I thought my simple interest will justify my decisions but I'm wrong, it just made me more burn out and unmotivated. I keep asking if will all of this really be worth it?. I hope so. For me failing is a luxury that I can't never afford. I hope that someday I will know if it's all worth it. I don't even expect for my dreams to come true anymore. I just want life to be a little bit better for everyone.