A letter from Oct 27, 2025

Peaceful right?

Dear FutureMe, I broke things off with vlad today. He went to his moms, hes coming for toby tomorrow probably. Im going to sleep at my moms. stephanie came over and hung out for a bit. we drank wine ate pizza, cried laughed farted. He was so special to me. But in the quiet moments when it was just me, I started to feel alone. Used after ***, bothering him when he was on his computer. He denied me kisses bc he just didnt want to kiss me. I got my peircing today. Nose ring left side bc i sleep on my right. I have no ******* clue what the future will hold, but I am on my own now. I have to pick myself up by the bootstraps. I provide for me no one else. I will find me not in men but within. I will find my motivation to be the best me, the one I only find in the cabins in Big Bear. You are my hope. I am holding out for YOU. Look around and tell me it gets better. I really need that right now.

Epilogue

3 days later

Hi kyla, belive it or not, sometimes, i miss YOU!! the whole world has just opened up to you for the first time, theres a crazy sense of...

Thta in foeremd. Ouy nithk lal i het tiem abt. Wsih ot ot toyb i say oyu ermmeedbre bye. ,tbu otl ,it aws a i nggio on etreh get. Wtne ipgmnac i aws unf hbdayr!ti ti so for oru. Ti siquaose wsa eht at. Oyu itgf fomr mitcrassh etg lsilt ehpo aelyrl is a hieaptsne nca rof ehr ogdo i s,u eterh i. I w lvda fro fo tab tphesrioalni me keil eth tddin ahsntk gitnsh igmnnreid our. Tsi to hitgn odgo tgerof a si tis hiwch in gtrih asye onw hpe!w wn,o. Tnemmso egeibrrnmme uocroefs ielk i oogd the. Em you, pu uoy idd orsulyef ipck asrpbttoos yerall ltel yb eht tle. Wsa isth aght hrda. Etwn got dan eeryv btu yad swoemho u to up rokw. Btough stdtrae omor ofr got tslli apdi nw!o i :) paingy in evah ym hathle a,nc i i my tihs chitb i tge negvyerith oht gnatid mreo nwo ,iaursnnce mi. To hadr alneo be ist a tlteil. Eeiras ti tsi btu etsg nello,y. Otu elnao uoy og. Ouy ur !ho giogn hpoeis !nwo w ru heav ascepe emor rnifdes ovle ot annog it. Iknhtnig fo ufuert me erbrem i. Relett neragid thsi. Owdul eb hreew konw tdnid i i. I msemur adh odgo utb eyalrl a. Hnyoltes eognhu i rneve etiwr. Ihct atfs a kiclc mfro for i sfdeiiats ,tub i ounbtt rwdrfoa ru eoph elik. Uyo appyh seedrve to be. Elvo eslfe to hwat ru oxxo gt!u u trihg, sleint do nda okidd <3.

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