A letter from Oct 27, 2025

Peaceful right?

Dear FutureMe, I broke things off with vlad today. He went to his moms, hes coming for toby tomorrow probably. Im going to sleep at my moms. stephanie came over and hung out for a bit. we drank wine ate pizza, cried laughed farted. He was so special to me. But in the quiet moments when it was just me, I started to feel alone. Used after ***, bothering him when he was on his computer. He denied me kisses bc he just didnt want to kiss me. I got my peircing today. Nose ring left side bc i sleep on my right. I have no ******* clue what the future will hold, but I am on my own now. I have to pick myself up by the bootstraps. I provide for me no one else. I will find me not in men but within. I will find my motivation to be the best me, the one I only find in the cabins in Big Bear. You are my hope. I am holding out for YOU. Look around and tell me it gets better. I really need that right now.

Epilogue

3 days later

Hi kyla, belive it or not, sometimes, i miss YOU!! the whole world has just opened up to you for the first time, theres a crazy sense of...

Htta ni federom. Oyu tkhni eth lal etim i abt. Sya to eby deemrmeber to uyo btyo wshi i. Gigno tge teerh tol it, a wsa i no t,bu. It pancmig uor i so enwt fro trh!dbyai was ufn. Oqsisaue the saw it ta. Good fro gte acn i hasricsmt rylela ofmr still hpeo ethpasine ehr ftig you us, terhe i a si. I uro rpshtielonai me rfo ditnd ansthk atb the avdl eilk htings fo w ndginmrie. In a rgiht ihhwc ergoft w,no ist now asey ihtng epwh! to ist is ogdo. Sommten mnbmeerergi eth leki godo i ceousorf. Rellay uyo pu pick ltle yb you, did eth suryelof me sotrtpsbao let. Swa ihts hadr gtha. Ot btu yda gto yevre u etnw kwro ohsmoew dan pu. Etg dtnagi in :) meor hticb hot own ym agynip bhtogu gto lsilt dpai vhae hsti no!w leahth rfo i ym eyerhvtgin tadstre im ,acnuensri i oomr nac, i i. Tlelit ot its oalen a be ahdr. Utb tis it ynloe,l tseg eaisre. Go loane tuo oyu. Ihospe ru to w veah own! !ho rdsifne you ur pcesea more nonga voel ti gnigo. I mererb of tefuru kitnghni me. Ihst teetrl nrdeaig. Be niddt wheer luodw i oknw i. A lalrey btu i mresmu dha odog. Werit snhtlyeo i uehong eenrv. Ntbtuo t,bu sefasitdi ormf kile a rof hpeo ru tcih clikc i fats i wrorfad. Yapph eb ereevds ot you. <3 instel ahtw dikod ur g,ihrt xxoo eolv nad slfee u ot tg!u do.

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