A letter from Oct 27, 2025

Peaceful right?

Dear FutureMe, I broke things off with vlad today. He went to his moms, hes coming for toby tomorrow probably. Im going to sleep at my moms. stephanie came over and hung out for a bit. we drank wine ate pizza, cried laughed farted. He was so special to me. But in the quiet moments when it was just me, I started to feel alone. Used after ***, bothering him when he was on his computer. He denied me kisses bc he just didnt want to kiss me. I got my peircing today. Nose ring left side bc i sleep on my right. I have no ******* clue what the future will hold, but I am on my own now. I have to pick myself up by the bootstraps. I provide for me no one else. I will find me not in men but within. I will find my motivation to be the best me, the one I only find in the cabins in Big Bear. You are my hope. I am holding out for YOU. Look around and tell me it gets better. I really need that right now.

Epilogue

3 days later

Hi kyla, belive it or not, sometimes, i miss YOU!! the whole world has just opened up to you for the first time, theres a crazy sense of...

Htta in mredefo. Eitm i tab ithnk teh lal oyu. Rdmbeemree i yeb to oyu siwh byto yas to. Tge was eetrh niogg i tbu, no t,i a lot. Ufn aibtdy!hr ntew our os it was i orf agpnicm. Ti ta siqusaoe saw teh. I aleylr ssitchrma figt tlils fmor for is i eanhtsipe reh uoy odgo acn s,u egt htree ohpe a. Hte uro thariepislno dnitd ofr nsthig i atb giremdnin em stahnk vald w iekl fo. A tnihg ,wno ogod own si whihc sit wep!h rgfote rhigt its in to yesa. I nmestmo good orofscue eht mernreegbmi leki. Uyo laryel oyu, urfsyole srpobaotst yb hte em tle up ltle did ckip. Ghat asw siht ahdr. Orkw yda gto sheowom btu wnte yeerv ot dna u up. Tlsil veha trnyeighve own! i i hlthea htibc orf uogbth get ni hist otg ipad :) i own ,acn giaynp eorm i rttdase my im hto eiscnura,n moor ym dgtain. Be tis hdra ielttl a leoan ot. E,nyllo it tsi sraeei gest btu. Uyo tou laeno og. Ur ru ot ti vole sceepa nango isenrfd uyo iggno oemr !won hvae oh! w oehspi. Nghniitk fueutr i me fo remreb. Etlert aergidn shit. Tnddi rhwee i eb wduol wonk i. Mremsu btu hda i a oogd yllrea. Enrve etrwi i uoegnh ynsohetl. Mrof ihtc ur btunto kcicl a i i dwrafro utb, tedsaisif elki tafs ehop rfo. Oyu to eersved yppah be. Oxox u od vole dkiod gu!t ot dna h,trig feles <3 stilen thwa ur.

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