A letter from Oct 27, 2025

Peaceful right?

Dear FutureMe, I broke things off with vlad today. He went to his moms, hes coming for toby tomorrow probably. Im going to sleep at my moms. stephanie came over and hung out for a bit. we drank wine ate pizza, cried laughed farted. He was so special to me. But in the quiet moments when it was just me, I started to feel alone. Used after ***, bothering him when he was on his computer. He denied me kisses bc he just didnt want to kiss me. I got my peircing today. Nose ring left side bc i sleep on my right. I have no ******* clue what the future will hold, but I am on my own now. I have to pick myself up by the bootstraps. I provide for me no one else. I will find me not in men but within. I will find my motivation to be the best me, the one I only find in the cabins in Big Bear. You are my hope. I am holding out for YOU. Look around and tell me it gets better. I really need that right now.

Epilogue

3 days later

Hi kyla, belive it or not, sometimes, i miss YOU!! the whole world has just opened up to you for the first time, theres a crazy sense of...

In hatt eemfdro. You eth lla bta meti i nhtki. Uyo eerbeerdmm eyb say i otby ot wshi ot. Eerth i a on tlo egt ti, b,tu noggi asw. I etnw it so was ird!bthay ngaicpm rou ofr ufn. Ti swa het ta suioqsae. You itfg peoh etrhe sllit ahentspei hscrtisma is i rayell ofr rmfo ehr good su, i get a nac. W htgisn sntakh ienigrmnd ruo em of irslpheiotna i dlva het like bta indtd fro. Si sti ni tis ntihg to saye wno a oogd now, rotfge ghtri hcwhi w!hpe. Eth erinmgembre i leik oogd nstmmoe scofuero. Yo,u tel ysrfueol did tostpobsar you up me by tlel kpic hte llyrae. Thga thsi drha saw. Tbu msoheow nwet adn ryeev wokr to up gto u dya. Egrtyveihn terastd !onw ym ,anc ealthh :) tho iltls otg ithbc mi heav ym for orom idap ndatig tge yanipg goubht i isht i i iusnarnce, ermo i wno ni. Hrda ist to loena a be ittlel. Eseiar btu tis egts ,enloly ti. Lnaeo you otu og. Vleo it to w yuo sinfdre paesce mroe ur !own annog shioep o!h nigog haev ur. I of ikinngth ueuftr erbrme em. Rettle tshi aegdrni. Ldwou dtdni heewr i i eb kown. Utb mmrsue a oogd i hda lyealr. Eghuon enrve i lontyehs eiwrt. Uonbtt rof opeh a asft hcit ut,b ru i i rfwarod ssiiafdte klei fmor ilcck. To eb ahypp oyu rsdevee. Twha 3< to dkido gr,hti ur oxxo od veol u nsitle g!tu adn sflee.

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