A letter from Oct 26, 2025

Dear FutureMe, HI SELF '! TODAY IS oct 27 2:20 am actually birthday ng asawa mo. But eto emotionally damage ka ! You prepared simple gift for your husband which is cake his fav. Spiderman . But i dont expect his reaaction na saying he had the same cake from her ex. I was trying to be ok but end up to be hurt coz i saw in his face that his not happy i tried my best though im writting this just to ease my pain coz i dont have that someone i can talk too . Later on its like everything is my fault . I dont know maybe its just his style to divert the senario. But i just hate my self being too sensitive that i want to disappear in this world. Im trying my best,but sometimes a lot of things pop up in my mind. I hope self your still fine while reading this or i hope your still alive . I love you so much ian god knows i was trying my best pra maging best pra sayo Lhat ng prangap ko is for you na mging succesful ka i want to fullfill all your inner child side though alam ko feeling mo apaka childish ko while spending money gusto ko lng nmn magkaroon k ng mga bgay n dimo ranas noon. I just felt so hurt how you slamp the door na kulang nlng itumba mo ung cake n binigay ko pra sayo . How you sleep so peacefully while me trying to comfort myself by writting here kase kung ano ano nnmn thought meron ako. Dinedemonyo nnmn ako ng inisip . Bat gusto ko nlng mawala...bat ko nnmn nararamdaman yng feeling na ganito.why i hate my self. ,im sorry self i cant promise na everything will be all right. Just want you too know that while writting this alteast nabawasan yung pain ,ung burden by the way ilang weeks mo na napapamginipan si ate lhen and it still hurts .how many days you have sleepness night sleep.di mo masabi sa asawa mo.kase stress din sya sa work nya. Sometimes na papaisip ka kung mahal ka ba tlaga ng asawa mo or wala nlng sya choice kase gusto na nya kumawala sa prev. Relationship nya.ewan! Basta self alam ko kaya mo ung feeling ba nararamdaman mo right now .. happy birthday ian mhal n mhal kita im tring my best pra mging best pra sayo ,sana mkita mo yun. Happy birthday asawa . Sana ksama pa kita while riding this.