A letter from Oct 26, 2025

You know scientifically the first 5 seconds when u wake up u be in full state of memory loss Then u start recalling memories of the past day of urself of ur tasks today…etc Now this is just a normal human process For me, it’s a ******* daily dose of depression Cuz these few seconds when i wake up are my fav and they end like this 💨 I cant even describe how delighted i am to forget who i am and what i do in life and what i did the day before and tf im about to do in a few hours.. Just the same cycle everyday and i just miss the feeling (cuz i had it before) of actually smiling when i got these waves of memory every morning And i just.. i want them back.. i wanna wake up with a smile on my face.. sleep with a full heart and peaceful mind, not being able to wait till i wake up again.. is it too much to ask for?