A letter from Oct 18, 2025

Dear FutureMe, Things are looking up and sideways so that's nice. Technically the view is at all angles but I'm choosing to focus on that aspect. Let's talk facts though, current situation: - Been unemployed almost a year now. Only one "job" really caught my interest, and I'm in the process atm. Won't feel like a sellout at least. - Been doing some projects (Upshot, Bropilot, Artyfacts, sadly not much GREAT) and working at a startup unpaid (Title), so I'm still not good at seeing my strengths. - Been in a relationship for ~4 months now. Again, someone I thought initially was perfect (for me) but turned out I was projecting. To be fair, it was an intense start by mutual participation, so nothing I regret, I enjoyed the ride, I just had my hopes drop off the side of the ship and I hope that was mutual too. The only thing that would make me regret something like this is hurting her, and even then I'd rather have her a little hurt via universe happenings than crushed by our incompatibilities. Already she takes most of my random comments as judgements of her character etc. I am definitely not up for many more of these "let's see where it goes" situations, they belie a lack of focus on my part. Then again, I'm only operating at the level of my maturity and self-awareness, so indeed everything is for the best. - Other highlights from the past year - starting off in Mexico, a lot of Luci and Niko, a lot of paragliding with Gabor, Eric, Gala, Jorge, Pedro, et al. Then a lot of India, almost managing to get the Luftschloss to life (friggin Gipfel), almost getting mob-****** at Prysm in dimapur, 4/5 weddings attended successfully, some painting and a lot of friends. Then I went to Costa Rica, and had a jolly time with Silvia, it was fun walking the rainforests and flying, though I didn't make my 10 new fruits goal. Short trip in Mexico with Leanne after, which totally unravelled our friendship because we got fed up with each other. Then back to MTL and starting some projects, meeting Kiera and finding myself on the top of the highest mountain, and being unable to fly, so falling down the mountain one avalanche after another. I think I'm finally at ground level and I don't want to go underwater so .. well when you read this, you tell me what happened. Also met my niece - Liana, planning to meet her again soon too. - Still not the most fit, trying to make a running/stretching habit, and stay away from vices. Is what it is though. - Accepting I have a focus problem other than the self-love problem. - Wanting to explore the idea of "Expertise encoded in ontology" - Unnatural and sahil.science still dreams with a little progress - All this AI stuff and crazy stock market makes the world feel unstable I dunno, that's about it, going back to work now, will do my best. Will drive over to see Cuckoo aunty in a few days because life is short. I should write more.