A letter from Oct 08, 2025

Dear FutureMe, This last 3 weeks have been hell on earth. Right now you are suppose to be 13 weeks pregnant, happy and full of excitement for the future but instead you’re empty, tired and emotionally drained. 3rd miscarriage with no answers as to why. Life is so hard! It feels like a massive effort, I’m not happy and I’m not sure I ever will be again. Can I get back to before miscarriage me? My motto has always been ‘life’s too short to not laugh all the time’? Will this be me again? I’m scared… do I want to try again? What if it’s the same again and this time it completely breaks me, what if I can’t come back. I’m scared… what if I don’t try again and I spend my future years regretting it. I have 2 beautiful boys, a beautiful family and I want to make it bigger. I hope I have figured it out… Look back and remember me, hopefully I can look back and see how far I’ve come, Love you, sad you x