A letter from Oct 08, 2025

Dear FutureMe, So, I just want to begin by saying this is NOT a letter I want to write, but I have no one else to write to and I just want to let it all out. Okay so, how does one get out of this, I have no idea what to fricking do, it keeps happening again and again and again. I don't want to tell anyone because for fck sakes he's my own uncle. I say no, enough and that I don't want to do those things. I regret wanting to learn a bike if I knew this was going to happen. I think I miss my life of solitude, I should have just understood a **** life will be a **** life. Stop. Trying. New. Things. ihsrqt87eygoahfbljdoiuhgfbvjdfhjGoyqruweilhjkdfbfsyouhidsvjlnk/. If i didn't want to learn a bike, this wouldn't have happened. But then again, fate finds itself right? Maybe it's deserved but I genuinely do not want to be here anymore. I can't focus. I can't forget it. And I can't tell because he is a relative. It's frustrating, what if it does get out, what will everyone think of me? What will happenn to me? I'm saying it right now, nothing will happen to him. He has everything, but that. SO, he just uses a teenagers body? I hate his smell. I hate his touch. I hate how one second he's back to 'normal' and all nice and talking. I hate everything about him. I think the term of what he is doing is, well starts with g and then ends with rooming, like rooming with a close friend hahaajhdgukreyghkwlqryugifbhsuhrpowufijbp. And I think there is something wrong with me. Am I an ace? (if ykyk) cause man idk it's all confusing. Like tf. What's funny now about history and writing and just life, past-present and future. It doesn't matter. Does the truth really matter, people are misunderstood every single day. So because you can't know for 100% unless you are you. So, I could be lying, like typing all of this and be l y i n g. You'll never know. People do not gaf about the truth. So, why am I even writing this, and even more making it public but anonymous?? I am gonna see in 6 months if anything changes. Have I done something to help my situation? Have I done a n y t h i n g? Hey, if ur in a situation when u have no idea what to do, just know you're not alone. I really do hope when I read this again in 6 months, I'm maybe not as affected or done something about it. if not, it's okay. I will be okay. Otherwise, I will never forgive myself for being this affected.