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Dear FutureMe, Idk how I will be in next few yrs, to be exact how I will be WHEN I am 19 like srsly. That sounds crazy to me rn bcoz just imagine reading smthg ur younger self left for U. Well I hope ur life is much happier now, surrounded with nice people or someone who u can actually rely on.. Wouldn't it be just nice.. But even if it isn't possible.. I just wish u can find peace within urself Nd hopefully Nishant is still with u nd u are her gf.. Well idk if he's gonna propose or not yet but I am hoping he will.. Soon.. Hopefully u will be more calm nd collected nd mature nd much more self sorted as a person, someone u can respect yk.. Nd be a little kind to urself.. U deserve it babe.. For everything.. I may not be able to be so kind to myself.. Not yet atleast but I wish u can bcoz u deserve to be loved more than anyone else, before u love anyone else..🩷 I hope we are a bad btch rn yk it will be so cool naa, like crazy successful though not possible but u should be like crazy successful by then ki like it's obvious u will be leading a good life.. Well I had too much expectations for u, right? Hmm hmm.. I ik I should be the one working for it. Well, I will...Dw gurl but still yk.. U don't need to be perfect, just be urself nd enjoy ur life MY FAV PERSON OR CRUSH My fav person/crush .. Well yk.. He is Nishant ofc/ obv QOUTE OR REMINDER THAT HELPED ME THIS YEAR OR WILL Learning to be kind to urself is the most important thing. Life doesn't wait for u to grow up U gotta grow up urself Nd face things U will still have to live, stop pampering urself or ur pain bcoz it will create a loop.. Ultimately I HOPE I WILL ACHIEVE.. I hope to be a successful gr8 person, self sorted person, mentally and emotionally happy, no toxic people in my life, happy, stable art career or promising future related to it MY LIFE RN.., Well I am growing physically Nd mentally, on my way to be a self sorted person, to be mentally happy, to be peaceful Nd have some stable career, get good marks in boards exams (not rly sure about this one but hopefully) Had a rough breakup with my frnd circle but taking it easily or better than the previous one yk (8 std), struggling procrastination, lack of motivation, identifying patterns related to my personality and behavior Nd why I do certain things, kinda stable with nishant...Well the only person I can rely on rn., downfall in studies, barely managing it at all.. Idk abt my results, also a people pleaser tryna fit in but I am working on it to change that..