no subject

Dear FutureMe, In response to this letter from August 30, 2024: “ Hey girl, I am officially a corporate baddie, or at least a wannabe corporate baddie. I got accepted for a customer service position today. I am honestly terrified, to say the least, I am nervous and I just really want to do well. I putting it all in God's hands because that is all I can do , let go and trust in him. With God at the center of my life , I will not fail. This is just to say , everything good is from God and on his timing , just wait and pray on it consistently. Never doubt, always have faith , especially in the seasons of uncertainty. Always pray and put everything in his hands. Recently I have been so doubtful and distant from my heavenly father , yet he still has rewarded me , that just goes to show he will always be there , even when you aren't praising him, even when you aren't communing with him daily -as you should , he still has you close to his heart. God is so good! Onward and upward my love, be blessed in all your future endeavours. Amen. love, a 20 something” Update , I quit that job , it was terrible. People suck , even when you’re trying to help them , they shout at you , berate you and annoy you. It was the same thing day in day out , it grated my gears and pissed me off so much that I didn’t even stay a year. I had to get out before I lit the place on fire. I went on vacation in June and didn’t go back , and I’ve been unemployed ever since. I’m broke , miserable and I occasionally entertain suicidal thoughts. My entire family thinks I’m a lazy bum who wants everything handed to me on a platter. When the truth is I would sell my left kidney to have a purpose in this life , a dream that I had to see come true. Unfortunately I don’t and I never have , I am aimless , hopeless and terrified. What I wish is to have never been born. Nevertheless, I am here and I need a job , preferably one that doesn’t make me want to off myself daily. I also need God to answer me , I know he hears me crying to him constantly , why won’t he answer…I need him.