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Dear FutureMe, I hope you are doing well. The new school year started weird. I thought I finally found someone special, but instead it turned into a situationship. It broke my heart that we "broke up" after 4 dates, but life is just weird like that. We are friends now, but this friendship seems so weird to me, forced, even. I'm tired, always thinking, always wanting to know if he feels the same way I do. But I know he doesn't, he would like to enjoy his life and that's ok. Even if we have 3 classes together, I have to keep going, life doesn't stop. I just have to let go and keep going, because the world and life didn't end when it happened to me. I started talking to new people and I feel they make me happy, included. I like my new teachers, they give off cool and weird vibes to me, one as a mentor, the other as an older brother. I hope my birthday went well, and I was happy with my family or my friends, or both. I hope I still bike, because this is the thing that keeps me going right now. I hope our first friend when we started high-school is still his own annoying little self, and I hope he still stays a weird "younger brother" to me. I hope the new girl we met became our friend and I hope you went biking with her at least once. I hope my family is alright, and everything is great, and I'm happy, because this is what matters to me the most. I hope we had a chance to make new friends. So, yeah. Life didn't stop when a heartbreak happened, it never will, and it will happen again, you just have to keep going like we did before. Like when we were struggling with committing, being bullied, depressed, losing friendships, and heartbroken. Enjoy the butterflies, enjoy being naive, enjoy every moment, keep going, keep fighting, not for others, for yourself. Sincerely, Past me, Em.