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Dear future me, I'm writing to you today because yesterday, I was a mess. Back from vacation, the comedown and all that. Do you remember now? Or have you still not forgotten? Gosh, I'd love to know what's going on in my life on the day I receive this letter. I hope I won't be such a trash lmao. I hope I'll have a little smile playing on my lips by reading this... No i will definitely cringe at this letter. I'm writing to you today to tell myself that everything will be okay. We're moving forward ; we found a job as planned, an apartment, we're roommate with the best person on earth. We were lucky to experience a beautiful little love story to spice up the sweet little life we started to build here. It had been a long time since I had felt that way, those feelings of love. It felt good and the exact opposite at the same time. Now I remember, a reminder: why I ran away from relationships for over a year. Was it too soon to feel all that again? Now I remember the intensity of what I feel when I love, as if it also took me back to my previous relationships and those I loved very deeply. That slightly strange feeling of my heart no longer really being part of me, or just not beating at the pace it should, the feeling that it creates a disconnect with the rest of my body. Is it because it has bonded with someone else and lost its way ? It needs to resynchronise with me because right now it just hurts. But it will pass, this whirlwind of tears will cleanse your insides and carry away all the emotions you are going through, leaving room for all the beautiful things you still have to experience and that I can't wait to discover. See you soon for more gentle and peaceful letters.