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Dear FutureMe, Hey lovely, it’s Amelia on 9/28/25 and for you it’s your 18th birthday. Holy cow you’re so old and I’m so proud of you. Listen, I know you feel old today. But you’re so awesome. I’m sorry I didn’t write this on my 17th birthday- I decided it’d be better when I actually had questions and things to talk about. Do we end up regretting not going hoco? I hope not, I really didn’t want to go. I would’ve been strapped to a wall. I applied to my first college today- Wingate University. Direct admission. As of right now, I have a strong feeling we didn’t go to school for Musical Theater. We went for Music- didn’t we? I hope we did. That sounds like heaven. I pray our classes are guitar- songwriting- I pray we can involve God somehow. I have no idea where I’ll be in 8 months. I really don’t. What college am I going to go to? I saw an old repost the other day saying “my Roman Empire is where will my 17 year old self pick for college?” And I really can’t wait to know. I hope we go somewhere we love. I like Montreat a lot- though I just explored it. So I have no idea if that’s an option… I really hope we go to Montreat college Amelia. Wherever we go- we’re gonna make the right choice. And we ARE gonna make friends and I’m not gonna die. I’m not because I will get through this. I know you passed math right? RIGHT? math 2? It’s ******* me im leaving questions blank on my tests. I need to study I need a license. Pester dad to let you get ur license PLEASE! Wherever we go to college I’m proud of you for making that decision. If you’re not happy in your life right now- I’m so sorry. I’m not either I’m so tired and the cold is getting to me. You knew this question was coming- do I have a boyfriend? I don’t really want to date seriously until college but let’s be so fr I want a bf lol Moving on. How’s guitar? Please pick it up. You’ll love it like I’m learning songs tonight- I learned kiss me - sixpence and whatever it’s called. It’s cute :) Please pretty please tell me we got our dream prom dress. And adorable senior photos PLEASE tell me we did. Oh girl I’m gonna upgrade Pinterest tonight- I’m probably gonna forget but I’ll do my best. I’m gonna try to be happier and do better. Tonight I realized what I really really want is to just- live.? I went through all I wanted for college and what I wanted to do and have on campus and what I want encorporated into my daily life and Montreat truly does check all those boxes. You’re a Cavalier though… that’s embarrassing. You couldn’t be a bulldog or something? What was the deciding factor? I find beauty in sunsets, guitar, stars, Avonlea and Annie, I love that I have people in my life I can’t give up on or can’t leave me. It’s nice. Is Annie doing any better in college? I hope so. I just called her. I’m on the phone right now with her. I know you’re probably not going to go to montreat but let me dream. Enough about specifics for college- what are your electives going to be? Are you even going? IM SO SCARED I WONT MAKE IT THROUGHHHHH!!! Ok I’m gonna go have a panic attack bye Happy adult day- go buy cigarettes (don’t do that) bye!