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Dear Future Me that's graduated, I'm not sure if this will letter will find you after graduation or not (I was too lazy to look up Mercer's graduation date sorry). I also know you are currently at a crossroads as to whether you are even staying in Macon. If you didn't, that's okay and I hope you found an amazing opportunity to do along side grad school! However, if you did in fact stay at Macon to finish out the four years, I hope it gave you all the closure you needed to round out this journey. Coming to college, I never believed this would be the "best four years of my life" that everyone said it would be. If bad food, mold-infested dorms, and degrading mental health would be the best four years of my life, then I'm scared of what my future looks like lol. However, I didn't think college would transform me in the ways it has in these 3 and a half years. I've grown so much, LIVED so much in ways I never thought I would. I've experienced more in these years than I ever have in my life before this. I've made forever friends and accomplished things I never thought possible for myself. So while this may not be the best 4 years of my life, it will always contain some of the best memories I will be able to look back on for a lifetime. I hope you're not too sad self. I know you are though. I'm sad now even thinking that this experience will come to an end. It's scary. Nerve-wracking. And I can't imagine what my life will be like without college. If you're crying at this point of the letter know that I am crying with you as I am writing it lol. But also know this: everything WILL work out the way it needs to. That's one of the biggest lessons you learned while at college (along with, of course, the actual education you came here to learn). You're future is so exciting and full of opportunity and mystery. And I've finally come to terms with that mystery being okay. And you're going to be okay. So yeah. Even though this may be the end of an era, it's just the beginning of so many amazing things. And while I do have the urge to make predictions and guesses of where you are right now I'm not going to (I'll save it for another letter lol). Instead I only want to wish one thing: I hope that you, future me, have never given up on your dreams. No matter what they are and if they've changed a million times, I hope you continue to go after them and discover them and never ever ever give up. Love, You <3