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Dear FutureMe, Here I am 29 years old 2 kids, I’m at Sullivan’s eating oysters and cauliflower. It’s so good like a 20/20. But I was led to write a letter to myself . I’m currently working at U.S bank, running a mommy group and will be taking tax clients again once that time comes.But I’m just a space of needing and wanting more because I know that God wants me to have more. Me and my family are currently living in a 2 bedroom home with mold growing, it’s so stuffy. I’m paying majority of the bills and decided to get a car with a car note after praying hard and other factors, I just felt that God directed me to do so for stability. And something that I can say I did on my own really simply just for me. Some days I’m so frustrated because I feel like I need to do more and build more stability for me and my kids, I start things and never finish HR school for example I think that role would be amazing for me I enjoy being a leader and implementing new strategies for others but I have no room to be soft it seems like I’m constantly in hustle mode even though I have this man here who is now trying but trying isn’t helping financially, I’ve been paying the rent for so many years I’m not saying that if he had it he wouldn’t help but it’s like I have to hold our house hold together… if I don’t hold it together what would happen, I also feel like I allowed so much trauma in the start of this relationship that I’m at a place of holding on by a string. I have my podcast that I enjoy doing and I pray one day it takes off I’ve even been recording on TikTok but the state of this world is so uneasy and I feel I let so many different things get in the way when all I want to do is big a great role model and example for my children, I went to habitat for humanity for a meeting regarding a home building and I’m interested but scared about my credit I have a 604 but I need a 620 I think I can do it and I know I can, it’s like my mind and heart is just yourning for success. Because I know I can do it, I just pray that God does not take his hand off of my heart off my mind and my focus I’ve even been finding more success in solitude and different hobbies, I hope when I get this letter I’ve checked off more things and good news happen just remember that I love you