A letter from September 21st, 2025

Dear FutureMe, hi! happy birthday :) i hope you are doing well and excited for the day. i wonder what your plans are, if anything. who you plan to spend the day with? what is something you'd like to do? what are you wearing? what's your hair look like? today i woke up with kaitlyn in my bed and adriana swaddled on an air mattress next to me :) i also had a stuffed animal stuff inside the weighted blanket with me. we fell asleep watching sorry baby but somehow i wasn't upset about it. i think it's because i was just happy they tried. i find it hard to relate to people sometimes -- i get stressed out when it's not easy. but for a little bit, kaitlyn was laughing, and bianca was too. and adriana was live quoting LMAOO it was great. bee left early but she laughed so much i was like hehe :) i also got a lot of flowers this year which was really nice. so, later today i am going to hang out with Matthew. i really wonder if you and him are still speaking. it's only been a couple weeks but i feel kind of obsessed with him lol. it's kinda hard sometimes to like someone like that. but i'm trying to stay chill! but yeah, i wish i could write this letter and hear back from you. it's silly to wish for that though lol. well hey! i am gonna go to hmart to look for things from japan with matthew today and then we're gonna watch the kanye west documentary.not sure what is in our future but i hope he's happy. just realized that YOU have seen ariana grande live in the last six months. was it amazing? was it everything?  oh i envy you. you have lived such a beautiful life. LOL. i hope you still make people feel. in fact i hope you've done more. i hope you feel loved and cared for, i hope you feel good and kind, i hope you feel like you can find the light even when it might be hard. i hope you have hope, and love. i hope you write to me in your head and write to the future of you. i love you :) you deserve to feel happy:) you're a good bean! love always, nba