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Dear FutureMe, Well he just got mad at me for sitting and playing games for a while. Even though he had done this when he was my age a long time ago. He would lock himself in the room for hours and play games while he stayed outside of the room. Now he gets mad at me for enjoying myself. He tells me that I spend too much time on it even though he is on his computer the whole day. And spends his time doing nothing productive. I have done more than he does and yet he still had the audacity to call me lazy. When he tells me that I should do something else, I know what he means. He means "Get the f*ck out of my room because I just want to be alone to play games all day". I have worked my *** off just to afford my **** and now he calls be lazy like I don't ******* clean around the house and he doesn't. And this ************ still had the guts to tell my mother that I play games too much even though he himself, this ************ is playing games himself. I am just so tired of this *****. Every single time he tells me to do something else and to clean up. In my mind I think " Hey, how many times have you done anything around the house, Other than complain your *** off." I have been the one to clean up the whole time and he has done nothing for 2 whole years. While still getting mad at me for having some time to myself. I am working myself to the brink of colapse, Everyday. He had told me to learn 2 instuments in 1 month and still managed to do it and he still calls he lazy. A pathetic piece of ****. I am tired of this ******* everyday. I don't know how I am still alive after managing all of the crap that happens in my life. I have always wanted to dissapear each day. Staring out the window each night and wondering how my life would be different if I would have never been born or in a different family.