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today, its 16th of September. tomorrow its our computer exam. i wanna message her soo bad, but i don't want to trouble her, + its her arts, aaaaaaaaaaa i wonder when i will get over her my god. 6 months later me, have we finally ******* got over ? how do you feel that she's leaving the school and the last day you'll ever see her is gonna be soon. you're not going in her birthdays, it will be the last day you will be seeing her. will you cry? finally? after years of holding back? or does she know it now? did you confess? what happened! did it succeed or ... reminder, either regret it your whole life (probably) or feel bad for a month and loose the closest friendship you have which is dying itself. if you dont do anything, once she leaves the school, its over. like over over. she's gonna have new friends, better people, better friends, more handsome people around her, people that she like, having traits similar to that of hers, aesthetic ke 14 ladke, people better in extra curiculars, better at life, not some looser like us. or did she ghost you already? maybe write her a letter? but it wont matter anyway. theres like 1 in a ******* septillion chance that it will work out (or maybe its 0, atleast in this life, or probably even other lives ). please never forget that it is not her fault, never blame her, never hate her, im writing this so even if we get cold or our perspective changes, you get back or get reminded. please never blame her, it wasnt her fault. you're confident that you gave your love, you tried, but you gave her your love. be grateful of the fact that you did. it isn't her fault please never forget this. i hope we keep well wishing for her. she will always be in my prayers, i hope it stays like that. i dont pray usually but for her, i will. and i hope even you will. future me. whoever she loves is probably the luckiest person on earth. i well wish whoever its gonna be, be it someone handsome, be it someone better than me, be it someone dumber than me, be it someone more immature than me. always smile man, never hate her. never. though still curious, did we manage to collect all our courage, hope and finally tell her how much we love her? or are we still cowards? or is it better to not tell her? i hope you figure it out. though man never hate her for her choices. think with empathy, would you choose some loner, with no friends, not social (while you love to socialize, are an enfp), would you choose someone that replies instantly (ok maybe we would but think from her perspective), you're the popular person, would you really choose that loner? (think from her persp) its not her fault. imagine the options she have, people much better than you at life, who have much better looks. dont criticize her choice, criticize yourself. remember we think like this. please dont deviate and hate her even a bit. i wish we would talk more, call, interact more. but hey is it still like that? or do we not talk at all now? i assume she still contacts you during boards to discuss stuff or vent? hey, dont criticize that. its okay. be grateful.