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Dear Future Me, I wrote this to you on September 16, 2025. There are lots of things in life right now and lots of hopeful plans! 29 is a big year, and soon enough you'll be 30! Last month you had a chemical pregnancy/miscarriage, did you end up having a baby? If it was a girl did you name it Feyre and if it was a boy, did you name him Fenrir? I know you were self-conscious about Feyre, but it is how you both fell in love with reading again and both adore the name, who cares! Finances are tough right now with supporting Joe until academy. Did you end up being able to save $4k? That was our goal! You signed up for the NANY student loan payment, did they pay $25k towards your loans? I hope debt is starting to dwindle - its been daunting... how's it going? Right now you owe $31,500 on your car, $1738 in credit cards, $24,139 and $15,869 for Sallie Mae but in deferment for school, $62,577 for school loans but in deferment too. Joe is doing great with his running for his physical test, but he doesn't know when it is yet to get into the police academy. Did he pass? Did he start academy with Oswego County yet? You are in your first class of your BSN program. Are you still taking classes? Did they get any less annoying? You've been trying to stay consistent with being healthy by moving more, have you still been using your peloton and going for walks? How about eating? You're scheduled for a nerve ablation in October 2025, did you get that? Did it help your back? Probably not - lol bad back life. You're also trying to grow your TikTok to be able to possibly make some side money. Right now you are at 7,061 and the goal is 10k+. Did you hit that? What was your favorite book for the year? Any new ones that are coming out? Did ACOTAR 6 get released or revealed yet?? What about the next book in the empyrean series? DID YOU START THRONE OF GLASS YET? You 'just' started your new job in pediatric surgery on June 20th, do you still love it? As of right now you do and enjoy going to work even though its 5 days a week. You signed up for the NANY student loan payment, did they pay $25k towards your loans? With all these questions, I hope you give yourself grace. You are notorious for filling your plate too full and stressing yourself out for no reason! Stop that. You do more than most and if you don't, that's fine too. RELAX. You feel like time is slipping and you're behind in life, so stop comparing yourself. You have plenty of time.