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Dear FutureMe, Hello again , I've just received a letter from my old self (from last April) ,lot of things have changed ,i got old and mature. Back then i made a decision but couldn't make it through. I was weak against my feelings and my heart (that feeling of getting used or attached to sm1 , but it's definitely not love ) I can't deceive my self and it is cuz i can see very well the meaning of his actions and intentions, a man who loves you will never do things that you hate gosh I'm so mad,sad ,upset all bad emotions at once , back then I decide to leave him at once cuz saw that this realtion is going nowhere and i still see that , i wanted to make it halall and i asked him many times ,only one answer he master , I'm not ready (just excuses) since then i refused about 3 proposals just waiting for him to make the move but he didn't clarify nor comfort me, nothing at all , yesterday we were discussing,i asked him to mention the positives and negatives of my personality, he barely answered saying i like you on ur true self and he hated when i provoke him sometimes ,i asked him to describe as a person, he said it's hard and didn't answer, i understood the fact that he doesn't know how to describe but then i realised how can't he if i was dear and close to him he would ,at least ,(if i wasn't the one to describe then who ?) i ignored that just to keep the flow ,then i asked him abt that girl who always put likes on his pics he manipulated and ولى يلف ويدور ويوقولي نتي تان عنظك ابوني ومسقسيتكش مبعد وريتلو بلي هاه منيش مابونيتهم وكونت تاعي بريفي ميشوفو والو سكتت وقالي علاه توريلي مقتلكش قتلو انا معنديش وش نخبي قالي حتا انا مي كون جا صح معندوش يقولي مي ولى يدور فلهدرة ويقولي نتي وش تستفادي وو موراها رقدت وخليتو (قتلو ميطيللك غير ربي سبحانو ثالي انا عاقل قتلو كنت ودوروك لا قالي شفتي فقتيلي قتلي وي فقتلك روطار قالي للاسف وخىجت وخلبتو وليوم لعشية مبعثلي ماوالو ولا سيا يصلح لوضع ) but I realised bli this is less than i wanted , at least he would Unfollow her for my sake but he didn't till now (he never care abt how i feel and this is ain't the first time ) i hated him o sayi I'm convinced that he isn't the one bsk he tOok me for granted that he know I'll come back as usual bsh ana kraht ,i have no trust on him or anyone , i wanna go abroad, work there , develop myself and if sm1 better proposed i would marry him ,snn bah ydir wch yhab and especially cheat on me behind my back and make looking stupid ,habibi dezz m3ahom ,i really hate his character mfh why I'm still with him except everything. Let's see win ryha things Hada msg rah nkhalih mna hata l December wla November and I'll see if anything tbadel ,or at least he man up and asked for my hand 👌🏻 if not dezz m3ahom ×2 Labreh chft post f derriere chaque wahd galhom she got married and left me were together for two years and he's thinking bah yroh yhfer l3ah her fiancé , les commentaires bardoli 9albi and i read some comments li I needed to hear those answers I'll past some here Lala te93ed testena fik . La vie ne s'arrête pas à une personne . Une femme ne quitte jamais celui qu’elle aime comme ça… si elle est partie, c’est que tu l’as trop déçue. Vous avez le courage d'appeler son prétendant et vous n'aviez pas le courage d'aller la demander auprès de son père. Elle a bien fait de vous larguer