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Dear FutureMe, Hello Haven, i didn't expect na iiyak ako ulit sa lalake, but this time it's different. I'm crying because I'm hurting na I can't pursue my feelings, na i need to stop it. I don't have a choice but to stop it, to end it. I thought okay na ako eh, pero nung bumalik siya but friends nalang kami unti unti na naman ata bumabalik yung nararamdaman ko. I'm even crying kasi naiisip ko yung sakit na pinagdaanan nya dahil sa akin. I'm hurting knowing that he became like that because of me. Hurting that he's no longer the same, the way he treats me before. I feel like i really love him and still love him, but I can't say it. I can't say i miss you, i miss us, but it's my fault tinapos ko na eh. There's a part of me that i want us back but i know it's gonna be hard again, i know it's complicated and we're not for each other. But, it's hurting me bad, hurting me so much na ganito na lang kami. He's the nicest guy I've ever known, idk if makakakilala pa ako ng iba katulad niya. Hindi ko masabi na i still care for him not just a friend, but i want to feel his love again i want to love him again. But yeah, that's impossible na, kaya ang sakit. Idk what will happen next Haven. But for sure di ko siya malilimutan kung gaano siya kabait at kaseryoso sa akin.I hope you're okay na pag nabasa mo to. Cheer up Haven!