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Dear FutureMe, I want more strength. I want to lift more. I like my workouts with Christine. I have a schedule. I am trying to build a life here. Why? Why though? To enjoy the walks and the coffees? And the meanings? And the complexities? To have more ***? (I'm literally about to cry thinking about ***, ffs. Kosmas ffs ffs ffs. You cant be so ugly come on man) To be happier fitter more productive? Or maybe write the next chapter. haha the next chapter haha what's the meaning of this. My parents will start dying soon, and I'll be all alone to support them (okay, not exactly, I have my siblings but those are only there for ma)