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Dear FutureMe, I really hope you’re doing okay. Right now, mum and dad are essentially midway thru an argument. I’m currently listening to brown noise inbetween the occasional word of swearing and banging. Why are they like this? I swear to myself I will never become what they are. I will never hurt someone like this. The thing is, I don’t think any of them realise they’re both the problem, you know? Mum always acts like she’s so innocent but she’s just as bad as he is for carrying it on. Dad left it alone. Mum did not. I love her to bits but I just want Layla to sleep. I don’t want her to wake up and be unable to go back to sleep. This brown noise is working tho icl. Anyways. The current date is Friday the 12th of September. Charlie Kirk died two days ago, remember that? Yeah that guy. I don’t know how to feel about it to be honest, like he was a **** and believed in *** violence, but his own kids had to sit there n watch it all unfold. So many people watched that man die, it’s unfair for them. I keep back flipping between “nobody deserves to die for their beliefs”, and “he was a **** who deserved it.” I wonder if there’s a word limit. Anyways.. i started school again one and a half weeks ago now. I like year ten. The pressure isn’t as on as you thought it was at the end of year nine. I enjoy double music and sometimes drama, I enjoy English right now and some maths lessons whenever I don’t have ms morys. I currently like Max but I’ve not long gotten over Daniel. I’m proud of myself for that. A tiny part of myself wishes we worked, but it’s fine. I have more to focus on. Like max. We’ve been messaging and we’ve called one, average max behaviour, but I wanna break out of this friend zone and become something more. I like him, honestly I do, but he is proper busy lmao. He’s probably living his best life on siege rn while I’m contemplating suicide. Big contrast there. Today I had double French, which was boring, I was very tired and I spent half of the lesson needing to pee, in English we started Christmas carol. I think I’m really going to enjoy it. I remember a lot for year six too! Next week we will be starting English language too which will be cool. Music was fun too, I’m glad Taylor is gonna help me with my piece while I help with theirs. It’s a whole thing. I’m in my big ol’ South Park phase right now. I’m wearing a grey hoodie I got from when we went to Spain in April 2k25, Ive got my South Park pj bottoms on from con (which has passed by the time you’re reading this) I hope yoh enjoyed it!!! I wonder what you went as, and if you tried the craftsmanship competition this year. Did mum and dad let you go for two days or one? What outfit is Luton’s deadpool wearing?speaking of Luton, did we move up in the league? Are we back in the championship? How many games did we watch? By now, you’re in year eleven. You’ve done one round of mocks and there are three to go. I hope you can fix us, but I will do my part for you. I hope we can grow and learn, and I hope that we do well and don’t CRASHOUT anymore. I want everything to get better, but I don’t know where to start, you know? Like I wanna be like nyi-Ala. I can’t piss her off anymore or I’m cooked. I genuinely respect her but I guess she doesn’t like me. Fine. I wonder if the pookies are still together. I hope we are. I wonder if there are any new pookies too. I can’t believe I’m in year ten. Year 7 was yesterday atp. I wonder how I will manage without Mrs McDonald. I just want everything to be okay. But remember future me, everything seems so tough right now, but you’ll look back at this and smile. You need to try hard and keep going no matter what, okay? I love you so much and I will do everything for you. I hope you have a great day or night, and I hope everything is okay. You are loved, you are respected, and I wish you all the best. From past Lilly :) (767 words… hah… 67)