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Dear FutureMe, Writing this while being at work, it's been a month since i started working in ' Hay el ons ' not very pleasent by the changment but here we go again trying to convence myself that i can do it all ! i hope i can ! honestly i know i can but at any price ? i know that i'm capable of doing many things but are they the things that i like ? it's that period again ! the period in what i start to question everything is that normal ? i hope it is otherwise i will like to start looking like a crazy one ! let say that work is normal but is it ? i don't know what is normal anymore ! big changes are coming up i hope that i everything turned out great, that we will go to international, that we will grow more and more, i hope that i'll be here to witness that ! Frienship ? let say it's a bit complicated i don't know why but while writing the word ' Friendship ' oumaima come to my mind it's been a while since we talked ! a really big while ! it doesn't hurt anymore i get used being rejected by her that i start doing the some ! ignore her text, message, stories and reels she sends me Haitham ? we're talking but we're keeping it friends JUST friends yesterday he said that we can't be together we just can't and that facts hurts because it meant facing the truth ! the reality that i've been hiding from myself ! this E-mail is gonna be be delieveried in 6 months i hope by that time : i lost weight ! anysorte of weight is good i promise that i'll be happy with it i started a new habits : journaling, photography and ceramic ! All i'm asking for is stability ! mental one is the priority i hope 6 months from now i'll change to the best ! only the best ! Hope that this E-mail find you well !