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Hi it’s me again, I’m hungover and we had a really sweet chat this morning, and I just wanna send this now because there are things I can’t say to you in present time, and a year from now I hope they’ll be nice to hear regardless. I’m not gonna tell you I’m sending this, or get you to set a reminder, so maybe this will get lost in your junk email and never see the light of day, and that will be fine too :) I love you, so much. There’s absolutely no one like you, no one compares to you, no one even comes close. This situation hurts so much and I keep trying to feel a little less for you to make it all hurt less but I can’t shake you at all. I don’t want to keep telling you I love you because I don’t want you to feel guilty for not saying it back, or to feel like I’m pressuring you or being too intense, but I just have to get it out somewhere because it’s all I can think about. I keep wondering if you’re thinking about me, and if you are what you’re thinking about me, I wonder if you’re ever gonna feel like you love me again. I’m scared you won’t and that I’ve already lost that forever. I hope whatever’s happening now that you are so unbelievably happy, I hope our paths cross again (and again and again).