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Dear FutureMe, It's the end of summer. We are in the transition month of September. This time last year I remember feeling like so much didn't make sense and felt so broken. I wish I could say as I sit here that it is all behind me. So much of my life I look back and think I made it through so much. Struggles never seem to end but I wish the struggles with my kids and really my fellow co-parents were better. I hope when I read this in a year this nonsense with Leah is behind me. I hope the future is bright with no sign of her torment but I think there is at least 7 more years of having to watch my back. Sometimes I think even faking my own ***** won't keep her from still finding me and trying to tear apart my life. I just pray for peace. I just pray that whatever it is that is troubling me, I will have the strength to get through it without destroying the peace I have created for myself. It's been so hard to come back here every month and write myself a note. I have steeled myself away to protect what peace I have left. Letting out all of this anger, frustration, sadness, disappointment sometimes seems worse that just taking it one day at a time and not letting it get the best of me. So far I have done a good job of not letting this get too out of control but I am ready to have this come to a conclusion. I love you buddy, don't give up. You've been chewed up and spit out worse than this and you are still here trying to figure out this life.