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Dear Mon, what an honor. I'm 18, I am currently sitting inside of a cafe in san francisco. I'm not from here. I'm sleeping on the floor for the last few days to avoid paying for a hotel. I just want to be great, I want to help people. I may have to put on a ski mask to pay for rent this month. I have 1400$ total and am 10K in debt. I'm hungry, literally, like I need food. I often cry over this. Not the hunger but the desperate passion to change the world. There is nothing for me on this planet. I can either **** myself, or at least help those who do have a reason to live. I chose the ladder. Time is truly merciless, it's easy to forget where you started when your older and rich. But these days, the days where your 18 and hungry in a foreign city. Those are just as, if not more important then the days where successful and have important decisions to make. I remember watching squid game, at the I think people who are really greedy are that way because they didn't properly suffer enough in the early days. THESE days, these days are just as important as IPO day of a future company I'll have. These days define character, and character will lead to greatness. I swear. I swear I'll help this planet.