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Hello there, rn im listening to Don't look back in anger - Oasis. I'm grateful for today situation because ive move on from my dark phase, it feels unreal haha. Cuz you ain't gonna burn my heart out~ its too late to change things in the past. ill just move on. i know ive said this thousand of times but im srs im so grateful of my today situation. remember when we were sucidal, addicted, and toxic? well don't look back in anger. i heard ya say mut. rest in peace okay? im not saying i hate the phase its just canon i guess? ahaha i can't escape it. that makes positive change for the way i am rn. glad i got to homeschool and found my passion. for fact right now im writing script for my very own first movie!?? THATS CRAZY RIGHT?? i attend acting class too. crazy mf haha! oh i just remember today is when my letter arrived. but anyways is it safe place to say that god is real? i mean all the kebetulan krn sehari sebelum aku liat komen ig itu aku mimpi si naira. dan kebetulan jg aku nulis pesan skrg *****. but yknow idk why its a problem. kenapa projecting shame ke aku? wtf did i do wrong? knp aku yg bring the walk of shame? i let go out of it, js ******* let it happen. tp jujur aku liat letter 3 months ago tuh aku kira bakal kek 180derajat haha tp aku masih proud bgt kok!! jd ya mksdnya jgn nunggu waktu tepat lho, krn ya waktu itu tuh gaada yg perfect js do it now! "kita udah melalui banyak hal, jd aku percaya apa pun masalah kamu skrg. kamu pasti bisa! udah dulu yaa dadah!" she said. haha whoa rn im struggling afraid of writing script, thank you:).. i refuse to bring my trauma from the past. im so fcking grateful, why? because mereka ga berkembang dan aku berkembang but at the end i couldnt care less!!