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Dear FutureMe, How are you? Sooo, hi! Right now I’m 13, it’s Friday 22 of August, I just want to yap a bit and we’ll, who knows how I’ll think once you receive this, well, me but in the future- you get it! Alright wooo right now I’m in 2nd of ESO and in Spain, my current friends are Marie, Isabel, Angelica, Violeta and Eva. I’m scared my relationship with Eva will end because well I don’t talk with her as much since she moved schools and that scares me because she’s my childhood friend so I’m scared. I talk a lot with Violeta so I’m happy with that. I’m also super annoyed because I know Marie is ******* ***** rat liar, she only tries to get attention and make everything about herself like if she was the ******* queen of the world and ur annoys me so ******* much like GIRL STFU, I’ve caught like 191010100101010101001010100000 of her lies but of coooourse I can’t say anything bc in school I only got 3 friends and if I said something isa is too brainwashed and would defend her and Angelica would be too shy to defend me so **** ithhvfewbjohv, I ain’t getting any justice and it’s driving me mad because she makes everything about herself and then when you try to help her she always gets some excuse so she doesn’t show what’s wrong, SHE’S GONE AS FAR AS MAKING SH JUST TO BE A PROTAGONIST AND THEN SHOWING IT OFF ***** WHAT THE FUUUUUCK HNVGFHSKLVNLKJSGFBLRW. Also I wanna get discord to chat with Hisan(Amelia) hehe, she’s a very nice person and I consider her my sister already. Also I wanna chat about my *********… I’ve been -retry sure that I’m Pan and Demi since well love who you wanna love you know I don’t care, but also hooking but with strangers is just like ick, get away I don’t even know you… but I’m also starting to think I’m aroace because I’ve never had a crush yet… like I’ve has silly like kinda crushed that ended up just being too alone and needing someone by my side but no actual feelings so I don’t know like I do want love but either I haven’t found the someone or I just can’t love I’m scared of that, like lowkey really scared. Also I admire Hisan and I think I might have some sort of crush on her but she likes Marie, plus I don’t think I like her it’s more like I adore her and want to be able to trust, idk. Also I’m having a hard time because I want to relapse so bad in SH, I feel like I can’t trust anyone and no one will actually get me or understand me if I tell them and they’ll just say I’m being dramatic and I need attention and I’m too much on tt… maybe it’s true but I don’t know I just want to cry to someone so bad I really need someone to really on I can’t keep going like this… Anyways, after all this rant Xoxo, see ya!