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Dear FutureMe, Today is August 20th, 2025. Right now, I'm 16 years old but I'll be 17 in less than two months, which is kinda crazy. We're in our anatomy class with coach ramirez, oh and btw a girl in your class right now is pregnant and her name is Princesa Villarreal. STC classes haven't started yet, but I'm really nervous about those because I've heard the chemistry class is one of the hardest classes I'll take this year. I really don't want to have to give up band because that's where I see all of my friends, but we'll see where the year takes me. As of right now, I am single and we are still in the fight/fallout with Arianna, and I'm kinda torn. On one hand, I really want to talk to her again because I miss her and I want to help her with her acting career, but I don't know. She seems to be happy on her own, and the friends I have now are really cool, but I don't want to replace her. She's been so important to me for so long, and I wanted to be best friends forever. I know that's so cheesy but it's true. That day at the movie theater really sucked, especially because we had no one to go to while we balled our eyes out, but honestly, I hope that we just blocked that out of our minds and focus on our studies. (Sorry I brought it up again lol.) I also want to say this. If Arianna asks to be friends but just not as close as we were, I do NOT want you to fold and take that. We can't just throw away 5 years of friendship and act like nothing happened. If we do take that, I will be really disappointed in you. Anywaysss.. so you just graduated junior year!! Woohoo :p Please try to take care of yourself. This year and next year will probably be one of the hardest years of high school, but we have to make it the most memorable. I really want to make sure you still have time to have fun and act like a kid every once and a while, even though at the time you're reading this you'll legally be an adult in 6 months... That's kinda insane. I really want to stay in band, and hopefully we make it to state this year, but I lowkey doubt it. We'll see though because you never know. Ummm, what else is going on... oh yeah our presidents is a disgusting ******* that should be thrown out of office, but hopefully he's already impeached by the time this gets to you. Oh and as I'm writing this I have the region music stuck in my head because Kaylie was playing it earlier. It's the second one that's like SUPER pretty to play. I don't think we made a spot in region, but you never know. Like I said earlier, we are single right now, but maybe that can change? I really want at least one boyfriend before I go to college, and Ryan doesn't count. Even if he did I don't want to have just one boyfriend my entire high school career cuz that's embarrassing.. at the time of writing this we are kinda looking at a few people. And by looking I mean admiring from afar lol. We think Sebastian is kinda cute, but I think it's just because he's in STC to so we have something in common. Devin is also kinda cute but we haven't spoken to him in a WHILE. And we literally talked to Matthew for the first time in 10 years yesterday and I felt nothing for him, but again, you never know. Speaking of boyfriends, Trista and Jordan are broken up. I don't know if this is like a forever thing but they REALLY don't act like a broken up couple. Right now, your feelings for Jordan have been really back and forth, but Jordan is a really bad boyfriend from what we know, so I don't think that's a good idea. And also I'm pretty sure he would never like me like that just because we aren't like star crossed lovers. There's a word for how we feel about him, but I can't remember the term. It started with an "I" I think. Maybe it's like infatuation or something. I don't know we saw it on tik tok yesterday. I just looked it up and there's literally a disorder called Obsessive Love Disorder, so maybe we have that. It's been like this since we can remember though. I've always had a love for him, from the beginning. You know what, I'm gonna make you promise that when we graduate, you HAVE to tell Jordan how you feel, especially since we'll probably never see each other again. Regardless if he's still with Trista, or if he's with someone else entirely (though I doubt it) we HAVE to tell him because this will weigh on us forever if we never do it. What else can I tell you.. right now the most important person in my life is Ary. She's probably gonna turn into an amazing human being and I love her so much. I'm so glad Mamma and Dadda gave me her, because I definitely wouldn't be who I am without her. If she gets a boyfriend this year I'm gonna be heart broken. Not because I don't want her to have a boyfriend, cuz that's weird, but because I have to accept the fact that she's growing up. She's not the 10 year old annoying loser anymore. She's gonna be 14 this year, and by the time you read this, she'll be 15 in a couple of months. That's crazy. She'll also be with you in high school next year, so that's kinda insane. That's all I wanted to talk to you about so I hope you're doing okay. I love you, and I wish you the best. Have a good senior year!!!