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Dear FutureMe, its 01:23, 13th Aug 2025. im sitting in my hostel room, on my desk typing this letter out. my roommate and her friends (they are supposed to be my friends as well but anyways) are sitting on her bed, watching adolescene (a web series). its night, cold, dark and gloomy. it could be warm and cozy for some. i feel really lonely here. exactly an year back i was so excited for college to start, but thats what life is. highs and lows. the only person (hey i cant be sharing everything w my mom) the brings me peace and comfort is my best friend, pri. i can share everything with her, i share my heart out with her, she truly makes me feel so loved and wanted, i have no clue what id do without her. days when im sad, she sleeps with me on video call, stay with me all day long, shed call me right after her college ends, even if shes mad exhausted, and i love her so so much. i appreciate her. my college friends are nice, like really nice and soulful people but i feel like, they dont vibe well with me. r, s and d are always together, laughing, happy, cheery cracking inside jokes within themselves that i wouldnt get and honestly i dont wanna blame them. k? i hate that girl and i dont wanna waste a single sec talking about her. shes a ***** and i couldnt care less about her. so back to r, s and d, they bonded really well during sem2 and even though some people from their group do not exist as friends anymore r, d and s are an unbreakable bond now. they make plans within themselves and decide to ask me off just so that i wouldnt feel bad. i honestly have just come terms with it and this affects me no more. ostrich, i liked u. i thought i did not. or maybe i do not. or maybe im just attached. maybe ill never know what was it all. i spent my entire summer vacation texting u and updating u about my day, my night, my plans, everything about me. i miss all of that so much. i miss listening to songs with u, ur good morning texts, your goodnight texts, you texting me when you were high, i miss all of that sm. but honestly we would never work out. we had no future. we were very different people and i knew this. yet i kept texting u. u kept texting me. deep down i knew wed end up being nothing and you would only shatter my heart into pieces like the heart breaker you are, but im glad we texted, i think you were cool, except the drug part, but hey who am i to u anymore, maybe youll stop, maybe we might cross paths again, maybe we ll never see each other again. but me, personally i hope when i recieve this letter on 13th aug, ive moved on miles away from u and you never cross my mind. ill never yearn over u. goodbye ab.i never got the chance to process what we had. all of the intimacy and all of those moments for nothing? you were the first guy on campus i fell for. which probably was love. id keep talking about you to my friends, id get so excited when youd text me, id come to lib just to get a glimpse of u. i really really desired u. and i wish we could be something. i dont feel nice about how we did all of that and ended up being nothing. we never even texted. somewhere in me is a hope alive? that we might just get married one day, altho i fear ive kinda moved on from u, thanks to ostrich. he texted me right after the day we stopped talking and saved my vacation from getting wasted crying and yearning over u. i really do not wanna move on from u cause u seemed to be a really nice person, which i still want to believe is true. please tell me youre a nice person and we will cross paths again and we will get married one day. yes. i miss u my pretty boy. to the future me, i hope both of the guys im talking about in this letter, exist no more in my thoughts when i get this letter. i cannot do any more heartbreaks, it anyways is so hard surviving in this college with the kind of people around me and then to deal with guys like these? i cannot genuinely. i just hope to do as many internships, do well in acads, make my parents proud, who gives a f if my friends arent my true friends and wouldnt stick around me 5 years down the line? its true i wished to have a nice college life with friends and people around me, friends whod match my girl pri, but its okay. i just wanna grad with a good job, internships and make my parents proud. ladko ka kya, they come and they go, friends also lite, im j gonna be w them during fests and mess time. no emotional connection or feelings involved, i saw how it all ended like in sem2 and i wouldnt wish that on worst enemy. worst worst period of my life. but highs and lows of life right? and yeah i hope when this letter reaches to u my bbgl, you are not losing your mind of ur friends or over a guy. just take everything lite and every bad moment shall pass on. rem how bad it was 2024feb, march, apr, may? or 2022 oct, nov, dec? but see how far weve gotten. life works out, it will work out everytime and youll do wonders. do not. I REPEAT DO NOTTTTT crash over anyoneeeee no one deserves ur tears. make mamma proud. be an inspiration for ur brother. pamper mama and mami for all theyve done for u. give ur mom the life she deserved. be someone ur brother would look upto. friends and boys? i dont need them as long as i have pri. my family and pri. only they matter to me. and no one else in the world could ever compare. i love u bbg. we got this <3 tc lyyyy mwah