A letter from May 01, 2025.

Hi FutureMe! Kamusta ka na? Masaya ka ba? Hiling kong sana masaya ka na ngayon. Ngayon kasi, sobrang sakit parin ng puso mo. Kakabreak nyo lang din kasi weeks ago, fresh pa, at syempre masakit, sobra. Miss na miss ko na siya. Sakanya ko lang naramdaman lahat. First love never dies nga ba talaga? Malalaman natin pag nabasa mo na tong letter na to. Mahal mo pa rin ba siya? Kung oo, magmove on ka na haha. Ang tagal na nun. Di na babalik yon hays. Siya na rin mismong nagsabi diba? Na hindi na magbabago ang isip niya, at final na yon. Hindi na siya babalik, teh. Siguro pangfirst love mo nalang talaga si Niko. Pero alam mo, habang tinatype ko tong letter na to, umaayaw ang puso at isip ko. Ayaw nitong hindi si Niko. Gusto ko kasi na siya hahaha. Alam mo yon, nakita ko kasi talaga future ko kasama siya. Gusto kong mahagkan siya palagi. Pero hindi pwede. LDR kasi kayo eh, naghiwalay tuloy kayo hays. 2 years and 5 months din kayong naging magkakilala. Ang tagal din non, noh? tapos 1 year mahigit din niyong natiis ang LDR. Isang beses sa isang buwan lang kayo nagkikita noon. Dahil strict ang family mo, at huli pa sa love language mo ang physical touch. Pero kung siya, ayos lang. Grabe ang nagagawa ng pagmamahal. The things you do for love is insane. I hope you can love yourself the way you loved Niko. You deserve so much love. Not because you two separated, that already means that you're not lovable. Sabi niya nga diba, na you're a lovely human being. And he loved you so much. He just chose himself that time, and that's very brave of him. I hope you can continue choosing yourself, too. Pero you know what? I loved him so much, and I still do. It's hard to forget a love that made you feel so much. A love that made me feel loved, seen, and worthy. He loved me with so much of his patience. That's why I'll never forget him. He was my first love. He'll forever be my first and greatest love. Halos lahat ng first ko, sakaniya ko naranasan. He also had a lot of firsts with you. First kiss niyo nga isa't isa eh. Funny, right? Cute niyo nga nun, sobrang awkward ng first kiss niyo. You two always went to SM North EDSA, tsaka sa Trinoma kayo laging nagddate. Nakakadaan ka na ba ng España nang hindi nagrerelapse? Haha eme. Pero Manila is really something. It changed him a lot, and Manila was your dream. Well, actually UST was your dream. Pero dahil hindi raw kaya financially, you had to let go of Manila. Masakit, diba? Tipong wala kang pangarap pero yung nag-iisang pangarap mo, hindi pa natupad. Isa rin siya sa pangarap ko noon, pero iniwan niya ako. Masakit. Sobra. Pero wala akong magagawa, ayaw na niya eh. Maiintindihan ko kung hanggang ngayon, hindi ka parin nakakausad. Minahal mo nang sobra eh, higit pa sa sarili mo. Kaya naiintindihan kita. Ayos lang yan, nagmahal ka eh. Pero ingatan na ang puso, please? Alam mo nangyari sayo nung nagbreak kayo diba? Naging sobrang miserable ka. Kaya iwasan mo munang magmahal. Mahalin mo muna ang sarili mo nang lubos, please lang. Wag ka nang magjowa haha. Sign na to. Kung may love interest ka man sa time na pagkakabasa mo nito, sign tong huwag. Hindi worth it. You better establish yourself first before risking anything especially with love. Sarili muna, please? Pero ayun, I hope na masaya ka ngayon, kahit mag-isa ka lang. I hope you found peace with being with yourself. Be fine being alone, without being with anyone. Tsaka, kung kayo talaga, magiging kayo parin sa huli. If it's meant to be, it will be. Make peace with that. I hope you're doing well right now, mapa acads or career man. I hope you're happy and in peace. You don't need a love life to be happy, remember that. Thank you for still holding on, and for being so strong. You went through so much, and you deserve a big big hug! Alam kong ayaw mo sa physical touch, pero ihuhug kita, as your younger self. Hindi ka na kasi nayayakap ni Niko eh hahaha eme. Pero ayun. Magpakatatag, okay? I love you so much. Please take care of yourself nang mabuti, ha? Para sa sarili mo. I hope by now, you're better than before na, and you love yourself better na rin unlike before. Ayun lang, haba na ng letter eh. Good luck sa life, oki? I'm rooting for you, and I'm hoping for the best and for your happiness. -Your past self, from May 01, 2025.