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Dear FutureMe, How are you doing? I'm currently writing this letter on August 9, 2025, at 10:50 PM. I wanted to write this letter on the week of my birthday, but somehow I got carried away. I had the nicest birthday this year; Bibin brought me an iPad as a birthday present. Aloshy, Jincy, Bibin and I had a great day at Southampton. My colleagues at community SLT threw me a great 30th birthday party. I felt so loved. Bibin and I are working things out; we fought physically, but we both are closer to God than we have ever been. I can see some positive change in him. I've been praying a lot for his job in the UK. I know that when I read this letter on my 31st birthday, he would've got the job we prayed for... We are not planning for a baby at present. He is concerned and not ready for a baby, as he doesn't have a job that he likes, and also, we are not financially stable yet. Sometimes I feel sad when watching some random Insta reels about babies – I grieve the life/motherhood I never experienced. Things will fall into place at their time – I believe. I don't talk to my in-laws, of course – on my last birthday at 29, I felt grateful for their presence in my life. This year on the 30th, I don't even think about them. I've been living like their existence doesn't matter to me anymore. My mom and dad are doing great. Dad has something to do – his business. Mom started teaching students online – she even brought a webcam. I have been close with Jincy and Aloshy. Kurien Chettan and family, Jincy Aloshy, we are like a family now. The things I'm working on now are 1) My UK driving licence – I've been trying for a year now and failed 5 times already. I know when I'm reading this letter, I will have already got my licence, and I will have been driving all the places in the Isle of Wight. 2) IELTS – This is my second time; I'm going to write my IELTS exam. The 1st test results were satisfactory but not up to the level of the HCPC requirement. I will pass the test with a 9 band overall. 3) Working on my health – I'm 75 kg now. The highest of all time. My neck and body are getting darker because of Acanthosis Nigricans. I'm planning to join the gym with Jincy Aloshy and Bibin. I will get back to 55 kg next year when I read this letter. I will be able to confidently wear the clothes I have always wanted. We will be a healthy couple. 4) Starting a hobby – I will start a hobby – either pottery, guitar or going for hiking. I will start drawing again and do commissioned artworks. 5) Job for Bibin – I will do everything I can to get him a job. I'm the one who is desperately wanting a job for him. I will pray daily. We are a team. 6) Save money – I will save money to buy a house in Kerala. I want a house in the UK (a 4-bedroom house – a massive one with an island kitchen, a spacious living room, etc.).... I will see you next time. Please commit to the gym routine and healthy eating habits, please. I want to look fit and healthy, which I haven't been able to do in 4-5 years (my prime years). My wishes for the next birthday: 1) fit and healthy body. 2) Financial freedom 3) Driving licence. Will see you next time :) You are doing so great. I love you. Take good care of yourself and the family that you've created.