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Dear FutureMe, heyyy, that was a cute read i cannot lie. so im currently in the midst of summer, and tomorrows the last day of my summer internship at the law firm and that was pretty cray cray, it did defo take a lot of social battery and several awakward social interactions but whatevs, what doesnt **** you makes you stronger and im grateful i actually pushed myself to do it and was ambitious about it cause i didnt lose much but i gained a lot. anyhow, one year ago me you were great, and thank you for that. to answer some highly anticipated questions and wishes, possibly in a disappointing way, i did not have a singular thing develop with any man unfortuantely, actually maybe fortunately, cause like why. but yeah nada, i lowks think some people may have developed small crushes on me, then got to know me, and started to hate me when they figured out how i actually am. but whatevssss, if you dont like me for me then you dont like me period, and you just like the illusion of a girl that does not and will never exist in reality. i also did get the b3thaaaaa woohoooo!!!!! sooner than you thought actually so thats great, i got my own apartment, made some new friends, defo strengthened older bonds and truly understand what a friend is supposed to be. I experienced all of ramadan in manchester, went to london, went to edinburgh, went to small towns, slept over a bunch, hosted iftar, went to the cinema alone, went to ikea, bought a lot of products, and so much other stuff i cant remember. im very grateful for all i experienced this year cause i think im right at the cusp of knowing who i am and these experiences defo brought me closer to that and made me experience life in a whole new way. for next year, i hope i did well on my exams and did well academically and locked in a bit more than this year, i also hope to make even more new friends, and put myself out there even more and continue to challenge my comfort zone in unique ways. I obvs want some nice hair growth, clear skin, and a great bod, but we'll see. i hope to be consistent with my prayers too and generally nice to everyone around me. i hope im an active member of the arabsoc and make new friends and maybe, possibly, have a super tiny thing with a guy but i wont put too much pressure or hopes on that cause weve seen the pool of gents in this city and its truly not much, so i cant make something out of nothing. lets just hope i feel more confident in myself, less insecure, more articulate, and just more sure of who i am, what i bring, and what i can say and think. love ya bunches, keep doing you bruh cause thats the best version of you there is, and i know self-improvement is always at the back of your hed but dont be too hard on yourself and stay calm, chill, and cool. i love you so much and whatever happens, it will all work out in the end and it is not the end of the world, its simply redirection and revealing something that you need to learn from before you take the next step. toots, haya (sitting on her bed in khobar at 12:53AM about to go to bed before her last day of internship but opened her laptop to watch course unit videos and found this letter)