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Dear FutureMe, Hi there self, talo na naman tayo. Nag end na naman yung relationship na tinry natin i-keep. We invested everything even though we are not getting the same amount of love he used to give us. We love him so much, God knows that. God also knows that we prayed for his wellbeing everytime, for his growth and maturity. We always look forward to his achievements in life because we wanted to witness that and be there to support him. Sana by the time na mabasa mo to self, medyo okay ka na. Kahit hindi pa fully healed, pero sana may progress. Love yourself first from now on. You can love him from afar. Focus on yourself. If you really are for each other, no one can take that away from you anymore. God is working. God is making better plans for the both of you. We think that maybe it's just wrong timing. He still studying, and I have many responsibilities on my plate. But he also has responsibilities in his life as well. He can't commit to us right now, I hope someday if we're really meant for each other. Someday I hope, we will work on this TOGETHER. I pray for our healing. We are so much in pain right now. Only God knows exactly the pain we're suffering. But we can do this, even though it's hard. Hardest part is to accept the fact that we're not together anymore. No hugs and kisses. No good morning and goodnight messages. No naughty chats and calls. No whisper in my ears telling me he love me. No sweet updates. We don't know if he's scared to commit, pressured, not sure if he wanted to be with us or just love the feeling of us loving him. Please self, love yourself. Focus on yourself, make more money, do the things you haven't tried before. Do it alone. Heal, do it alone, but this time, with God. We believe in love, but do not chase it anymore. We are full of love, but please take care of yourself. You love him deeply but please love yourself more. We will do that. We will be healed, this is just a phase. We did this before, we can do this again. We will regain our happiness and peace again. I love you self, don't put pressure on yourself. Everything will be alright.