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friday, aug 1 ( 2:07 am ) so, yea. hi? how are you? i am not doing well here if you ask :). well, someone left me again. for pete's sake, everytime that i have to take an entrance exam, they always leaves me. when i was taking shs entrance exam for stem, that first boy left me lol. and now, when i am about to take an exam for college ad, this man left me too. oml, i just can't believe. is this karma? but yea, i miss him :). it's been a few days since he left. idk, i wish he came back to me. ik, it's hard to love an insecure, selfish and unaffectionate girl like me. maybe that's why he got tired of me. even i wouldn't love me. i am miserable. no one wants to love someone like that, right? so, yeah i am all alone again :). i just wish that if they'll leave me in the end, they shouldn't come to me at the very begining. they like me first, but i am the one that's suffering in the end. i am very affected by ending whatever we have. i can't afford to at least smile but him? he's laughing with his friends, how i wish i can be that happy too. i am hurt, really hurt. but we do end in a good terms, and that's what hurts the most. i can't help it, i miss you xd. beb, please? you're the only person who i care and love like this, i hope you do the same :(. i thought that the boy from jhs was the last person that'll make me cry, but you also did. you're way better than any person i met. i miss you :(