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OK SO THIS WAS WRITTEN MAY 11th 2025 BUT THE SEND WASNT WORKING SO I SENT IT TODAY. Dear FutureMe, Welp.. here we go again! Another birthday, another birthday letter. HAPPY 15th BIRTHDAY MARGOT!! I cannot believe I’m 15 now. That’s so hard to grasp.. it feels like my childhood has gone by so fast and then suddenly floated away. I’m literally almost finishing freshman year at LASA!? was it hard? Easy? Just bad in general? You’ll have to tell future me all about it for our 16th birthday. I feel like this should be a tradition. Right now we’re in Spain (well actually London) we just flew from Spain after finishing the 8th grade Spain trip. We have this stupid connecting flight. I got in yesterday at about 11:00 pm and then slept at a hotel with Anna and Elise in my bedroom. We woke up today and ate some breakfast.. now we’re getting ready for our 10h flight back to Austin. I can’t wait to see mom and dad and evie and Toby. They make me smile so much. Last birthday past Margot talked about her puppies, lulu and Toby. We lost lulu. We hurt so bad everyday.. does the pain feel a little bit better? They say time heals everything. She’s still in our heart. I’m crying writing this because she should be here right now celebrating with me. Today I’m wearing my Birkenstocks, Nike socks, garage sweatpants, Comfrt hoodie and a Magellan shirt. Yesterday on the bus back from the hotel Diego and Travis were singing in the back and the girls were harmonizing better in stereo from Liv and Maddie. Right as we speak we’re on the bus to the airport and someone from the front started singing me a happy birthday. Then everybody joined in.. that just made my day. This morning Eva and Anjali both forgot it was my birthday and Olivia hasn’t texted yet since she’s not with the group, so assume she forgot too. Ew. Toby turned 5 this year and he is the absolute most adorable and sweetest baby ever! I love him so so much. He’s all I could ever ask for. Lulus about to turn 2 in a few months and I’m so ready to celebrate her birthday, even though she’ll be forever 1. I miss her so so bad and I cry every night. I always said I can’t envision life without her, and then it happened. I’ll never forget that horrific night. Worst night of my life. I think I’m about ready to wrap this up. I don’t know what else to talk about! You make sure to do an even longer letter for our next birthday, k? Because I just know we love hearing from our past selves. Oh! I just wanted to mention that we had a much better time in Spain this year than last. Remember the 7th grade exchange program? Well that was absolutely horrible. I went back to those same places I was the 1st time I went to Spain and could see my younger self sitting on the bench I cried on. I sat down in that same bench this time around and soothed her. It was agonizing, but I told her it wouldn’t last long. Apparently Tessa and I are on speaking terms now even after her bullying last year. She still hasn’t said sorry and I need an apology, seriously. It destroyed me. I even let her borrow some underwear yesterday to sleep in because she checked her bag. We laugh a lot together. I have to say, I do miss having her a friend. She lit up the room and still does l with her new besties. Olivia, Anjali and Eva I can’t say the same about. I get so annoyed with them so quickly and they exclude me every once in a while. Oh well. I love you so much Margot.. so does everybody you’re with. They don’t want to see you in pain. They have such strong feelings towards you and you can’t be the one too crush them. Hang in there and keep fighting. Everyday will be a challenge but you’re strong enough to get through them and find the positive. I love you so so much… Margot 🥰 P.S. for some reason I keep using the … thing! Nana always uses it and I feel like a gramma! That’s fine because I love having something in common with Annan.. it’s also so practical!??