A letter from Jul 26, 2025

How will I face the reality of losing you when the idea alone is already unbearable? Will I ever be able to prepare myself for the pain I’ll feel once we’re out of each other’s lives? My four-year STE journey has been full of hardships and breakdowns, but somehow, you managed to ease that in just four months. Marcus, I don’t think I’ll ever be able to handle the pain of losing you. Things are bound to change, but can we be the exception? I want to write everything about you because I never want to forget what it feels like to be loved by you. Earlier, I told you the things I would miss if we ever broke up—but what I said wasn’t even half of it. I always wish time would stop whenever we’re together. I want to cherish every moment because I don’t know how long it will all last. You’re the only one who never asked me to tear down my walls—instead, you respected them, and you adjusted. I’ll always be the lucky one, indeed. Your consistency is one of a kind. I finally met someone who asks how I am every morning and wishes me sleep well before sleeping every evening. I love how you always try to understand me in every way. I love how expressive you are and how unafraid you are to show it to everyone. I love every single thing about you. When will I ever be ready to lose you, my Dwight Ramos / Joshua Garcia? :(