Hi AlishaDid you do it? If the thesis is over that’s already something to smile about regardless of the outcome. I don’t know how it went but I’ll try for you. Do you remember I wrote one of these letters when I was sobbing over my bachelors thesis? I told you I’m doing this for you so you can do this masters program. So that you could feel accomplished and advance your cv. I wanted to set you up for success in a good job. That’s why I’m suffering through this. Right now I’m at a low point. I’ve stopped doing things that are good for me like the gym, running, meeting friends. I’ve stayed inside all day. I’ve cried every day this month. I hate the process of this. I hate feeling so behind in life and I hate feeling so useless. I worry that I’ll never make it out. I want a job to feel like I’m not just a wasted human and a consumer. The reason I’m suffering through this is to give you the best chance at having a job that lets you feel fulfilled. I’m grateful for younger me for suffering through. I don’t know where I’d be if she didn’t. So I will for you. I hope this is over for you.
Epilogue
5 months later
Hi sweetheart. I didn't get the passing mark you hoped for. It was over for a long time. I stopped with academics because of burnout. I know you tried really...
Hrda. Orf you ewre uoy doog isthgn ot geiv m'i pu rsyro ahtt adh. .
The tpisri ryou thkin d'ton emadciac i rseevded ldorw. .
Eoph tub rlelya adh higmt i htta otu em i iutbrdotnce to slos colres aveh gribn hatt rbnu tthhugo dna teh fo rdah tinkh grynti i htta dluwo ujst heav wayals.
Aetdys moessitem ist' twih acn go na shpignu lal i psirnt ttah dan otn hnwe twrho aerc tsi' ouy ubt oyu vhea ownk ttha ueerdancn a. Wtringi lyearl is'nt a ritspn itsshe. Kown a fo ttha up derkow just tslo in it setish ewf tge eilk tnhsig ouyr of ird ot gaitnsy gmiac am etowr you nltiu aoclbreh i and 4. Oletmyepcl edpe owkr nda fwual nac srustb utb it yuo uyo do slsufesu!cc yeo'ru if yuo glienef so about atht erwe tres klei edne. Umeooct hte the cggihnna uckiq wrteen' ivigdnr oyu odgni aubeecs leofrsuy ot nwst'a gneohu nourgd dan you yeulrfos unhgeo telilgn were. Wree htegnmsio uyo t'asnw idrewro het euaebsc uatbo edep stre aalyws eouhng. Od aawyls uyo eedden tlfe geimohtsn ekli ot you. Oyu ot newh ads ereag tel erwe met be slaog free ekswdeen gtiirwn oesth yerve istehs slcsoiiea rt'wnee neve and yda fmro oyu sexircee uyo ewer if nad.
Dan s'ti ot evil utjs hbaetr mtsseieom ko. Utb thsi din'td it uyo vlie wenk you laylre. To i dha.
Esncumo d'not heyt me evah utb dna efasr as eams bsodtu ouy umhc i sa sllti teh. Anc atwh i me od and nnoectt esgiv taht on csneomu i osufc peho i.
Go eorm htta tseish and eocn to eiv' ryt ddeedci akbc tiwh. Os and ogod nca mfro eecubsa oyu intshg ti cumh oyln tpu it iotn ocem. 'sti dgoo. T'is odgo rylael. Afil if i mite hutr uyo i 'atcn klie erew shti eb. Ym wroht not 'im iagttcanh ot of lesf ti essne. Noyl enivg nwo uto ot ryaell doog i eomr rale smfeyl if snhigt i ot'dens erts taht nirytg by os ton will ****** eb ncoe es'hert ti okrw get aevh.
Ocem liwl a job. Ebal to od ouy nyma os gihtns era. Os edbtlaapa uoy levrce nda era. You to od nfdi ruseco lliw of orwk. Rtse sa edeedn eocssrp het dan usttr. Levo uoy i.
This user has written an update to this letter.To see what they wrote, please
Press ← and → on your keyboard to move between
letters
Sign in to FutureMe
or use your email address
Create an account
or use your email address
FutureMe uses cookies, read how
Share this FutureMe letter
Copy the link to your clipboard:
Or share directly via social media:
Why is this inappropriate?