A letter from Jul 25, 2025

Dear FutureMe, I'm sitting in Norm's kitchen, working on the Lepido data. There's about a month left in the contract and I'm trying to get something worthwhile done. I've been seeing Norm for about a month, so I've started physio for the motorbike accident. Things between us are really good. We stayed up until midnight a couple of nights ago, chatting away. The conversation started when he wanted to do a check in about how things were feeling between us so far. Having the other person in the relationship doing an equal amount of the emotional labour feels unbelievable. And suspicious - I'm worried it won't last. So I try to set that aside, enjoy what's here right now. No sense in worrying about something that hasn't happened yet. I think it's because I haven't seen someone do those things before, like the unprompted check in. So I become suspicious. Which is ******* sad, in and of itself. I want to hold onto this newness, this separate but connected in this new relationship. I'm hopeful and cautious and we'll see where I'm at when I get this. Love (because what else could there be here for me/you?), Past Becky