A letter from Jul 25, 2025

Doggy, Today marks 1 year of me walking into the office when you were on your phone. There was so much hurt from both side that eventually came up and I know we are/were both exhausted. I know you’re a great guy who did a bad thing. I know that things that start off super small and irrelevant can become huge seemingly overnight. In the mix of all the positive and negative emotions… I feel like the fact of how much I love you… has gotten lost. It got lost because of things I am choosing not to say or not, it gets lost by my actions, it gets lost by your actions and assumed feelings, it got lost in all the tears and kicking and screaming. There are a couple of silver linings in my opinion including me starting therapy to overcome some personal battles that we both had blindly been dealing with. February 2025 could have potentially been the biggest dip of our marriage, and we don’t even know it. That leaves so much time for us to grow and experience and love. When we choose each other, we are choosing the bigger life. We are choosing happiness. When we choose honesty, we are choosing the bigger life. I think it may be believed on your end that I look back now and see 14 years of terrible times and lies and regret, but I don’t feel that way at all. I see high school sweethearts, growing up together, and supporting each other. I see many nights of just the two of us enjoying each other fully. I see a cute house in a good neighborhood with beautiful children and friends. I think we have very full lives that are better when we choose each other. I have never loved another man, more than I love you. I have never wanted or envisioned a life without you. I hope when you receive this on February 15th 2026 that we are more healed and happier than ever before. I want a life with you in it. I want our family to be guided by you. I want to support you and be supported by you. I think sometimes we are a bit too serious, especially me. When I think of the future, I always see you in it. I love you so much and I love the life we have built together. Please always continue to chose me like I am always going to continue to chose you. I love you so much and the gals love you so much. You are our everything. Xoxo Alexis Billings